Happy Anniversary, MS….

Its been 10 years to the day…. not 10 years since I developed MS but 10 years since my diagnosis.  I can’t remember what I had for dinner last night but I can remember the phone call and all that led up to the diagnosis…  I’ve written about all this before.

I’ve been thinking about what I would like to post today (besides vowing to post more).   I don’t think I want to write about too many details of the diagnosis.  But I would like to recognize my blessings and offer encouragement.

I know that a lot of people experience a lot of things/illnesses that shape their lives and by no means do I want to seem like an ‘everything is terrible’ blog post writer.    But things have changed a lot for me.   I am no where near the person I thought I’d be at this point in my life.  I grieve that.  It makes me mad.   The fatigue issue and the walking issue really get me.  I’m on a cane now,  I wear an AFO.    I envy those that can wear those awesome high heels.

So I struggle with the discrepancy with where I am and where I thought I would be.  I struggle with accepting God’s will for my life.   Am I telling Him that His design for my life is just not good enough?  I hope not.   I pray for His will to be shown for my life and when it is/was, I was surprised.   I read an article the other day that I want to quote… the article appeared in HomeLife and is not about illness but I love this quote:

“Before, I prayed, ‘if the Lord wills’ such and such will happen.  After, I realized that I didn’t mean it when I said it.  I said, ‘If the Lord wills,’ but I never honestly thought that my plans for life wouldn’t be His plans.  I was smitten with the illusion of control.  If I just worked hard enough, prayed hard enough, lived right enough, things would work out.  Now when I say, ‘Tomorrow I will do this or that,’  I don’t have any illusion that it will happen… unless the Lord wills.” (Ron L. Deal)

I would love to take MS and toss it over a cliff.  But I can’t.   When I take the time to look past myself and all the things that I think I need and want,  I can see how much God has blessed me.   Especially with my husband.   He has been my staunch advocate.  He does more reading on MS that I have ever done.    He is continually thinking of ways to make my life easier.   He loves me.   And I love him.    Which brings me to my kids, who have really seen too much.   Our son was 9 and our daughter was 12 when I was diagnosed.    They are so used to all of this…   I was working full time when I was diagnosed and taking them to school.    One blessing I can name off the top of my head is the fact I got to be at home with them during the last years of their schooling.    And I got to see them grow into the wonderful people they are.

Have another good day!!

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Art Every Day Month – 2014 – Day 6

I missed it yesterday!!!

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For today,  I just finished this… I found the instructions on Pinterest.  It said to use old watercolor paintings but I used bits and pieces of what I had….  Not sure I’m done with this one…  It might make a reappearance later.

 

 

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Art Every Day Month – 2014 – Day 4

I’m starting to get really into carving stamps.   I made two this morning – one for the center of a flower and one for the petals.    I decided to try these out on cards.   Turned out pretty good, if I do say so myself!  🙂

Happy Day 4!!

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Art Every Day Month – 2014 – Day 3

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I had no time/energy to work on anything today so I thought I would share this painting I did last month for Day 3!!

Reminds me of a quote:  “Be yourself.  Just be yourself about your art and everything else.”

Fly your flag…  BE YOURSELF.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Art Every Day Month – 2014 Day 2

I have a lot of half-finished paintings and drawings and other things in my art room.  I don’t mean to abandon them.   If I don’t finish them quickly I’ll either get distracted or lose interest or something else will happen (like getting sick).  Then I won’t get back in there for a day or two and by the time I manage to visit my art room again I’m ready to work on something else.

Happens all the time.

So thinking about Art Every Day Month,  I wanted to look around for some new techniques to try.   New things that were not too involved.   Quick art projects that could be finished in a day or so.    With materials I already had.

Collage with printed background:

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Art Every Day Month – 2014 – Day 1

Happy ‘Art Every Day Month’ 2014!!!!

I’ve participated for a few years now.  Last year, I think  I made it all month.  I think.

I don’t feel like this is something that I HAVE to do but something that I want to do.  So no guilt if I miss a day.  I can just pick it up the next day and go forward.   The whole purpose for me is to get into the habit of creativity and grow as a result of my efforts.

What an awesome idea this project is… plus I get to see all this awesome artwork by others who participate!

I’m sorta into printmaking  over the last few days:

I carved a quarter repeat stamp (learning a lot from books… and Pinterest.. and Google)

 

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Spinning my wheels

.. again.

I felt really ‘stuck’ yesterday!   I did stuff around the house but really wanted to do art.  But me , being me, had  no idea what I wanted to do once I got in there!   Today will be better.

On the plus side,  I got an iPhone yesterday!  Look out Instagram!

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